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 Erika, 17, Thomasian, Filipino
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He Says. She Says.
written on Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 5:04 PM ✈
IT HAS BEEN 3 YEARS.
Within those 3 years, I felt completely a loser. I was so dumb to think about things that are stupid enough to call me a failure. Uggh. First, I think that I am fat and that no one would ever like the way I am. Second, I am super duper ugly because of my darn mole and nose, Third, I am not the smartest kid in class. Many hardworking people always outsmart me in such a way I came in least than I expect myself to be. FAT, UGLY, LOSER.
But, the brighter side happens. My close and true friends tell me I am nearly close to perfectness. A classmate of mine in 2nd year told me she likes me because I had the perfect body, skills, the brains and the money. WHAAT THE!?!? All I can say was that . . . . . . .
Every time my friends tell me someone like-like me, I don't believe it. Mainly because, if they do, they could tell me in person. I mean, I don't bite. I would understand. AND SOMEONE DID THAT WILL OF MINE. That perfectly someone who told me in the perfect-est unperfect-est moment. He said, "I liked someone else. But because I got turned-off, I found someone better. Do you know who she is? She's really perfect just the way she is." I terribly asked him who she was after his dialogue. But after the end of the day, he told me, "It is so embarrassing to admit it." And the he whispered, "You." He allegedly had the courage to tell me. I was proud. I immediately and completely fell with him again. It was so wonderful.
But where is he now? He is pushing me to someone else. And I really hate it. I figured out, maybe he got turned-off with me, too. How was I suppose to know? He didn't tell me. =(
Because of that, I lost hope. I returned to my loser mentality. I am FAT, UGLY AND A FAILURE.
No one would ever ease that.
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He Says. She Says.
written on Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 5:04 PM ✈
IT HAS BEEN 3 YEARS.
Within those 3 years, I felt completely a loser. I was so dumb to think about things that are stupid enough to call me a failure. Uggh. First, I think that I am fat and that no one would ever like the way I am. Second, I am super duper ugly because of my darn mole and nose, Third, I am not the smartest kid in class. Many hardworking people always outsmart me in such a way I came in least than I expect myself to be. FAT, UGLY, LOSER.
But, the brighter side happens. My close and true friends tell me I am nearly close to perfectness. A classmate of mine in 2nd year told me she likes me because I had the perfect body, skills, the brains and the money. WHAAT THE!?!? All I can say was that . . . . . . .
Every time my friends tell me someone like-like me, I don't believe it. Mainly because, if they do, they could tell me in person. I mean, I don't bite. I would understand. AND SOMEONE DID THAT WILL OF MINE. That perfectly someone who told me in the perfect-est unperfect-est moment. He said, "I liked someone else. But because I got turned-off, I found someone better. Do you know who she is? She's really perfect just the way she is." I terribly asked him who she was after his dialogue. But after the end of the day, he told me, "It is so embarrassing to admit it." And the he whispered, "You." He allegedly had the courage to tell me. I was proud. I immediately and completely fell with him again. It was so wonderful.
But where is he now? He is pushing me to someone else. And I really hate it. I figured out, maybe he got turned-off with me, too. How was I suppose to know? He didn't tell me. =(
Because of that, I lost hope. I returned to my loser mentality. I am FAT, UGLY AND A FAILURE.
No one would ever ease that.
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It's all about who we are..for real
“I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.”
Bill Cosby
Hey!I'm Roseanne Erika A. Loquellano. My friends call me Erika, but when I reached college, some of my new-found friends call me Rosiee or Chichi. And it's weird hearing that.
I've been living in this crazy for 17 years now. My journey has always been and will always be a bumpy one. I've been through the loudest laughter and the saddest tears but still here I am today, standing still, proud and happy to who I really am.
I have an amazing family. My dad, Ronnie, has been working overseas since I was three. God knows how much I miss him every single day that he's not around. He still calls my mom 'Love' and it's so thoughtful of him for doing that. My mom, Evelyn, is a public elementary teacher. She was my Filipino teacher when I was in the 6th grade too. She's a bit loud I tell you, but deep inside, she's really sweet, funny and of course loving. I have two ridiculous older brothers. Rodney, the eldest, dreams of becoming a pilot but still hasn't find enough financial support for his training, which leads him to apply for a job in a ship company. Michael, my older brother, is on his last year in college already. So we'll be expecting a fully-payed nurse maybe 2 years from now after his board exams and additional experiences. I, being the youngest of the siblings, am on my first year in Biology, because I hoped to become a doctor some day.
Being a doctor isn't just my only dream by the way. I had hoped of becoming an actress ever since I was a child. The limelight has always been the source of my inspiration every time I declaim, which eventually make me look like I am natural. Well, my mother was an actress anyway. In her college years, she was an athlete, musician, declaimer and a dancer, no wonder how I got my ever awesome chromosomes. Ahihihi. I wanna explore the center stage, and I wanna know what it feels like to win an Oscar and have a sold-out concert. But yeah, I have to stick to college first. My mom says, no matter what age you'll reach dream, it's still fulfilling `cause you know you have accomplished something really important to you.
I always remind myself to stay inspired. Because it is only through inspiration that we are motivated to move and be different. This still ain't my moment to shine (bright like diamonds and make tons of money, hihi), but somehow someday when my moment comes, I will be a champion. :) Stay inspired!
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